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Nanny i miss you so much all i want is you back with me i think about you every day and night. Today is 1 year and 8 months since you was taken away from us and it feel like it was the night that you was taken away. I feel lost without you beening her. Wish i was with you at the moment you was my life and now it feels like my whole life is rubbish. I keep asking why god took you and now i know that they needed a new angel and that new angel was you. the night that was taken away there was a big hole lefted in my heart and that place will never be replace intill i am with you again. I will always love you and you are alwas in my heart and thoughts love you loads nanny RIP. xxxxxxxxxxxx

With Love From Leah & Jimmy x x x

Dear Pauline Not quite sure what to write, i know what i want to say in my head but find it so hard to put in to words. Everyone still misses you SO much i cant belive you will have been gone two yrs this June, i can still remember you so clearly. I realy wish you were here, so we could have one of our big family party's!! you were always so calm & organised everything. Miss you Paul x Gemma x x x

i miss you mum so much iwish you was here so i could talk to you life has not been the same without you things are not right only you could sort these things out if you was here anyway love you loads mum love your oldest son rod xxxxxxxx

mum im sorry ive not wrote for a while. Trying to write this is proving hard, my little maddison just wants to look at your photos. Today its 19 months since you were taken and still its as painful as that night. I like to believe your still with me thats how i get from day to day, i just waffle on and tell you all thats happening as if your next to me, i hope you are. At the moment mum maddisons been so unwell they now say its MRSA that thing you dreaded so much, i so wish you were here because i dont know what im meant to do, i always asked you mum. You knew everything, only you could tell me what i was supposed to do. Its weird im 33 years old but still feel like a little girl, i just need my mum ,i feel so cheated that we cannot be together. There's people out there that have it all and take it for granted, id go without everything just to have you, or a little bit of time with you just for a moment. The thought of living the rest of my life without seeing you or hearing your voice it hurts more than you could ever say.Im a strong believer mum and i know that oneday we will be together again and that will be forever. I love you mum with all my heart, I will miss you forever with every breath i take sleep tight mum love Tracey, Roy, Jay, Maddison and Jasmine xxxxxxx

sorry it is a bit late but i could not bare going on here. nan i wish you a merry chrismtas. i miss you so mucha nd i try not to cry but i find it hard not to. wish you was still here with us. hope you like your holly wreath i mad you. love you loads and i wish you was still here love you loads xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

if tears could build a stairway and memories were a lane we would walk to heaven to bring you back home again no farewell words spoken no time to say goodbye you were gone before we knew it and only god know y out hearts ache in sadness and sercets tears will flow what it is to loose you no one wil ever know. god saw you getting tried and a cure was not meant to be, so his put his arms around you and whispered come with me, with tearfull eyes we watching you as we saw you pass away although we loved you deeply we could not make you stay. your golden heart stopped beating, hard working hands at rest, god broke out hearts to prove to us he only take the best. i send a kiss to the sky above in it contains all my love, catch it and keep it close to your heart love keeps us together whilst we are apart love you loads nanny you were the best that happened to me love you xxxx

Dear Pauline I just saw a picture of you, even tho i think about you lots i hadnt seen a picture of you for a long time & it brought so many memories back. I would love for you to be here so much, so would everyone, you & nan. Thinking of you xx x

my darling mum its been a while since ive visited your site. i find it so hard although i love seeing the pictures of you it makes it so real that your no longer here.3 days ago it was your 63rd birthday i wished i could of been with you, in my thoughts i was allday. i know you hear me talk to you all the time, to me your still here,you always will be. sometimes its like i forget you was taken away from me and its like waking from a nightmare that doesnt end and when it does i realise it was no nightmare you really are gone. i miss you more than words can say, my life is so lonely without you. nothing or no-one could ever fill the the emptiness you left behind. my darling mum i loved you with all my heart and forever always will you are the wind beneath my wings. love you mum always xxxxxxxx

Dear Pauline Happy Birthday With all our Love Gemma Dave Leah & Jimmy x x x

another month has gone by i really miss you and i wish you was still here with us all yeserday i hope you was watching us me and my dad was both crying all we want is you back here where you belong. you are always in my throughs and always in my heart my heart is empty with-out you you fill the place and now it is brocken in half. i wish we all can have a few more mins with you love you loads if you have time will you come and see me and if you do then let me now by a sign like you lovely smell. love you loads and loads xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I MISS YOU SOO MUCH, I THINK ABOUT YOU EVER NIGHT AND DAY YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY THOUGHTS AND SPECIAL IN MY HEART THERE IS NOT A DAY GOES BY WHEN I DO NOT THINK OF YOU I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH. I AM LOSTED ON A HALF TERM AND DAYS OFF SCHOOL AND CHRISTMAS COS I ALWAYS USED TO SPEND IT WITH YOU BUT I CAN NOT NOOO MORE YOU WAS LIKE MY BEST FRIEND TO ME AND YOU STILL ARE I HAVE BEHAVED AT SCHOOL AND I HAVE TRYED TO BE GOOD AT HOME BUT U KNOW THAT IS HARD FOR ME I CAN NOT STAND GOING IN TO YOUR HOUSE COS I CAN STILL SMELL YOU BUT I SEE GRANDAD ALOT I HAVE TRYED TO LOOK AFTER TRACEY FOR YOU LIKE PROMISED I WOULD AND I JUST WISHED I COULD BE WITH YOU BUT I KNOW YOU ARE HERE WITH ME BUT IT IS HARD COS I CAN NOT SEE YOU, I WILL DO ANYTHIBNK JUST TO HAVE ONE MORE MIN WITH YOU. MADDIE HAS GOT BIG SHE WOULD BE PUTTING ALL HER DIRTY HANDS OVER YOUR CHEST OF DRAWS AND SHE NOW CAN SAY "NANNY" YOU WOULD LOVE TO SEE HER AND JASMINE IS LOVELY AND SMALL AND JAY HAS GOT BIG HE NOW GOES TO JACK'S SCHOOL I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH NOW YOU ARE NOT HERE I THINK OF ALL THE GOOD TIMES WE HAD TOGETHER AND I WISHED I WAS WITH YOU RIGHT NOW I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH I TRY NOT TO CRY BUT IT IS REALLY HARD COS I MISS YOU WHEN U WENT I HAS MY HEART BROCK IN TO TWO AND THAT PLACE WILL NEVER BE FILLED AGAIN I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH LOVE FORM LAURA XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

With Love From Leah & Jimmy xx

Dear Pauline Im sitting thinking what do i write. I cant belive a year has gone by. You are still missed so much by everyone. Tarcey has your song playing im just sitting here listening to it, it plays over & over again. often on my way to work Phill Collins plays on the radio another one of your songs. I just dont know what to say a year on. You were the head of our family, you & Nan. Things will never be the same again. They say time heal's but, You & Nan were the best. Nan wasnt ready to go, i know you were ill & in pain but i wish you wasnt taken. I miss you Pauline. With Love Gemma x

Dear Pauline A year has gone by and we miss you more than ever. Hope you found your way to mum and dad so you are all together safe. Not a day goes by when you are not thought of. You were so brave. Until we meet again. Terry and Pauline x

TO MY LOVELY NANNY EVER I MISS U SOOO MUCH I THINK ABOUT U EVER NIGHT AND DAY WHEN I HAVE DAYS OFF I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO COS I NORMALLY COME AND STAY WITH U I WILL BE THINKING OFF U TODAY I LOVE U SOOOO MUCH LOVE U FROM LAURA XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

my lovely mum im thinking of you today. mum one year has now gone by since you were taken away you were my world,my best friend i love you more than words can say the say time heals a broken heart these words are so untrue i miss you with every breath i take i'll never get over losing you your in my thoughts day and night my life will never be the same until we're standing side by side when we're reunited once again i pray the angels up above will keep you safe for me and although we are so far apart when i shut my eyes your all i see i miss you mum with all my heart, i will never forget you. i will love you always. all my love tracey xxxxxxxxxx

Just been thinking of you Paul......... Gone but never forgoten x I have lit a candle for you. With love Gemma xx x

lmum ive had to write and tell you whats happened today. its really strange since you left none of us have spoke heart to heart really. tonight me and rod spoke properly for the first time since your death. whenever i speak about you its normally in sadness at losing you, even when i think of the past it makes me sad but tonight me and rod spoke about good times and for the first time i think we was both able to laugh. you was such a funny person, ok it was sometimes at other peoples expense. you loved a practical joke, we all gained your sense of humour. those memories that were made in a funny sense will stay with us forever. we were so lucky to have made those memories with you mum and we will now cherish them forever. we'll never stop missing you mum, not me, dad rod or barry thanks to you we are the family we are. thank you for being my mum you are the best and i love you. we'll be back together oneday and i long for that day. love always tracey xxxxxxx

Mum today its 10 months since you left us. Its strange 10 months seems such a long time but then it feels like only yesterday that i was holding your hand praying with every part of me that you wouldnt go. Today i came to your graveside, brought you some flowers and had a little chat. I told you how i wished you were here to see all these kids of mine, they would have made you laugh so much. You once told me when i was behaving badly that oneday i would get my comeupance and believe me i now know what you meant. I didnt get just one girl, when you left you sent me another one. You also told me id oneday get my reward in heaven, i now understand what that meant, my reward is to finally be with you again. I miss you mum and will always love you from the bottom of my heart. sleep tight mum, all my love Tracey xxxxxxx

My darling mum this is the first Mothers Day since I lost you. Today i couldnt hand you flowers, couldnt give you a kiss and couldnt tell you how much i loved you. The closest I could get to you was standing at your graveside where I laid your flowers and card. Mum im so honoured to be your daughter and will be forever proud to call you my mum. You was the best mum in the world and the best friend I could ever have. I miss you so much and always will. You will be in my thoughts all day today as you are everyday. I love you with all my heart mum. Sleep tight my beautiful brave mum until we are together again. All my love Tracey xxxxx

im putting my message on early as i cant face tomorrow. its nine months, and its gone so fast that i cant believe it. my baby jasmine paula was born on the 13th of febuary at 10.11am, i know you was with me that day mum, know you was holding my hand, know you was there to welcome her to this world, i just wish i couldve of seen you.its more painful than ever now mum, now your not here as im bringing this baby up knowing how much joy you would have got from watching her.its now i miss you more than ever.i can picture you holding her and cooing to her like you did my other two and it hurts so much that you was taken before you had the chance to do that.it hurts my children have to grow up without you.its so unfair.you tried with every breath you had, every bone in your body to stay for us and i am so proud of you , i am so proud to say im your daughter. i hope that one day i can show the bravery you did mum.i'll never get over losing you mum, never stop missing you every day, never stop loving you, you were my world. your forever in my thoughts and always in my heart. i love you mum. love always tracey xxxxxxxx

to my best nanny ive got a new sister her name is jasmine paula and i got her on the 13th of febuary.we wished that you were here to see her.we wish you were here to see me and maddison too.we'll never forget you as you were the best nan in the world.all our love jay, maddison and baby jasmine xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Mum its been eight long months today and still i cant believe your really gone. Ive got six days left til i have my baby, your 5th grandchild and it hurts so much that you cant be with me to welcome her into this world. I know in spirit your be right there next to me holding my hand, that will give me the strength to face that day without you. I miss you so much mum that it breaks my heart all over again, I'll never get used to living my life without you mum, never understand why you got taken so soon. I love you mum with every breath in my body. Until we are together again sleep tight mum love always your daughter Tracey xxxxxxxx

Thinking of you Aunt Pauline xx

mum me and yvonne miss u so much the pain will never stop we loved you so much xxxxxxx

Dear Aunt Pauline I visted your site on 7th December 08 as that day marked 7 months since you were taken from this world. I wanted to leave a candle for you but for some reason i couldnt log on to do it, I just wantted to tell you i was thinking of you. Today is now christmas eve & once again im thinking off you. So here iam, lighting a candle. Gone But Never Forgotten With Love Gemma x

Mum, Six months have gone by so quickly But it still feels like yesterday Since the angels called you home And god took you away I prayed to keep you with all my heart Held your hand until the end I cant believe your gone now mum You were my world, my best friend I now know the reason Why god took you away You were to beautiful for this world Thats why you couldnt stay. i miss you mum more and more each day. I love you with all my heart and forever will. Love Tracey xxxxxxx

mum i havent visited this site for a while not because i didnt want to, i just havent had the strength. Its still so painful. I talk to you all the time as if your with me, then all of a sudden it hits me that your really gone and it breaks my heart all over again. I'll never understand why you had to be taken from me so soon. It was Maddisons first birthday on the 4th of november, i wished you could of been here to see her, she would of brightened up those long days for you. I believe you watch over us mum and that you'll be there when my new baby daughter arrives in a couple of months. Its just so sad that she'll never get to meet her beautiful nanny, but i promise to keep your memory alive for my children even the one you wont meet. I think of you all the time mum and i'll never stop missing you, nothing or no one could ever fill the empty place you left behind. I love you with all my heart always. Love your daughter Tracey xxxxx

just to say miss you love keep watch over all bless you jeannie.

Dear Paul, Its me again! im still thinking of you. I went to the cemertary last week for the first time since you were taken from us, im sorry its taken me so long to get there but i hope you know i do think about you lots. I said hello to Nan & Grandad while i was there. we then went to Traceys house as it was Maddison's 1st birthday tea, everyone was there, apart from poor Karen who was having a terrible time!! on her cruise! my dad has been txtin her taking the mick! Missing you Pauline xx

well paul its been 5.months babe and i miss you phoning me you always said that you jean never any different. just thinking of when we use to go to all halowes to mum and dads caravan. one time sticks in my mined . when we were 16 and 17teen playing catch ive got a photo somewere of you thin as a rake one hand up in the air the other straight out to the side like a police man directing traffic. could you help me find it we both roared with laughter tears in our eyes.wat a dopy pair . well babe iv had a very bad back n but much better now . well paul my puffers still puffing ha ha miss you paul love you always. jeannie.xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Thinking of you Pauline, always x

paul we did laugh at this remember those puff fresh air things you had they alway made me jump. the first time tracy was there as well i jmp out of my skin. we all laugh well guess what i"v got one to remind me of you so ever time it puffs your there miss you paul love you babe . love jeannie xxxxxxxx

paul just called to say have a good birthday drink with mum , dad, nell and jim , iv seen your children today & dave & karon & all the little ones . you know love i miss you they all miss you so . darling ill go now but ill be back tomorrow .god bless love jeannie xxx

Nanny today is your birthday, we wish we could be with you. We both gave your picture a kiss today. We talk to you everyday and hope you can hear us. We miss you more than the world and love you so much. All our love, kisses and cuddles Jay and Maddison xxxxxx

Its the 20th of september mum and your 62nd birthday. Today is the first birthday ive been unable to share with you, the first birthday since you've gone. I cant be with you in person but you are in my thoughts and in my heart always. It hurts so much having to be apart from you, i miss you so much, every minute of everyday. Today we as a family came to your graveside and lit a candle for you to mark your birthday, I like to believe you were standing with us. Believing your still around me gives me the strength to carry on, you were my inspiration, you gave me the courage to do anything, you were the most beautiful person i know. Im lost without you. I love you mum with all my heart and wish i could have been with you today. Miss you always Tracey xxxxxx

Do not stand at my grave & weep Iam not there i do not sleep Iam a thousand winds that blow Iam the diamond glints on snow Iam the sunlight on ripened grain Iam the gentle autums rain When you awaken in the morning hush Iam the swift uplifting rush of quite birds in circled flight Iam the soft stars that shine at night Do not stand at my grave & cry Iam not there i did not die x

Lots of love to you Auntie Pauline Love Leah & Jimmy xxx

Dear Pauline Today is Your birthday & I just wantted to tell you your still thought of today as you are everyday. Miss You Pauline x Love Gemma & Dave xxx

dearest paul it,s still hard to belive your not hear but you are in spirt, you were adevoted mum, wife, sister, aunt, and friend. our lives were enriched by her . my friend i,ve known for 46 years.my heart is so sad paul .you will be remembered by all the peolple who loved. her big heart smiling face and her thirst for life.made her the unique person she was ,love paul jeannie xxxxxx

Dear Pauline, Miss you more each day, Cant believe your gone. Thinking of you always, Until we meet again sleep tight. Love you Karen.. xxxxxx

My darling mum I heard something the other day and instantly thought of you. God loaned us an angel that was just to precious for this world so he took her back. Mum the only way i can justify having to lose you so soon is that you were just to beautiful for this world. So now your beauty graces heaven. I miss you with every breath i take mum, if i could have just one wish that could come true it would be to see you just for a moment one more time. I'll never stop loving you mum, your in my thoughts every minute of everyday that way it feels like your still with me. I miss you with all my heart . Your lovind daughter Tracey xxxxxxxxx

Gone but never ever forgoten xx

Dear Aunt pauline not aday goes by when your not thought of. I found this poem and thought of you, If tears could build a stairway & memories were a lane We would walk right upto heaven & bring you back again No farewell words were spoken No time to say goodbye You wew gone before we knewit & only god knows why Our hearts still ache in sadness and secret tears still flow What it ment to lose you no onewill ever know But know we know you want us to mourn for you no more To remember all the happy times life still has much in store Since you'll never be forgotten We pledge to you today A hollowed place within our hearts Is where you"ll always stay. with all our love your family xxxxx

Mum today its two months since you were taken from me, it feels like a lifetime. The pain of losing you is as raw today as it was that night. Every where i look i can see you, every where i go i remember when we went there, everything i do i wish you were there to do it with me. I didnt think a broken heart could keep on breaking but the pain of spending everyday without you proves it can. I have so many wonderful memories of you mum but not even those help to take away the emptiness you've left behind. I miss you so much mum that it takes my breath away, i love you with all my heart . Your loving daughter Tracey xxxxxxxx

nanny i really miss you so so much . i wish that you was still here with us . i hope you was with us on saturday it felt really lonley with out you there soz you always took you over to karen's house with us i really do miss you i have a big hole in my heart where you was now it is broken i really do miss you love you loads laura xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx