this is the first year in my life ive not had a card from you, and i miss you just being there at the other end of the phone. Guess we all take our mums for granted, we all think our mums will ALWAYS be there, but they not, and when they not, you realise just how much your mum was always in your heart.. There are so many questions now i shall never have answers for, I know you are in a better place and because I know that, and because I know how prepared you were for eternity, i am not selfish in wishing you were here. I just miss you ,miss, be it me moaning about something or other or you moaning at me, you were always there, I know you are with the rest of your family now, and your two sons, (my brothers, Derek and Jefferey,) and that gives me comfort. Im just sorry we didnt get to say goodbye, I know you will know now why we didnt, and that is the only comfort I get.........I will always hold in my heart, the last time you and I spent some time together alone, and we talked openly, I will always remember what you said to me mum.........when the time comes for that op, and I feel scared, I will remember what you said to me......... I cry each day still, i talk to you and sometime s i feel as though you are right next to me, I love you. I will love you always.

There are thousands of memories i have, impossible to find just one favorite one right now, its not been that long since mum died and everything is still so raw. I guess i hurt that i didnt see my mum before she died, never got to say goodbye,that hurt and anger will be wth me forever, Every day i think of her.