Haven't left you love for a while. Doesn't mean I haven't thought about you though. Me and Liv sat and laughed, and cried, about our memories of you, when I met her in Oz. I still think of your life as a huge inspiration on mine. I know you probably look down at me sometimes and think 'for god's sake rhian, stop being such a fool', but I hope you don't despair at my decisions. A friend I met in Australia died recently, again, so full of character, with so much to give to the world. He died in an unbelievably unjust and barbaric way. But, I want you to try and find him and, buy him a beer on me, and give him a huge hug, he deserves one. I'll pay you back when I join you guys. Also, a guy I lived with in Australia died as well, I didn't know him as well as you guys, but he was from Ireland, and I know alot of people want him safe, and I know you're the best person to show him a good time. So, look out for both of them. Hope you found my friend Jamie too, hasn't he got the most beautiful smile?? Finally, sit with my Auntie Alison for a bit, she is a brillant woman, she has some cracking stories, please tell her I love her so much, and I'm trying my best to look after Peter. I can't wait for the huge party when I see you all again. I will meet up with Sean this year, I promise. I know you are looking out for him though, because he looks like he had the best time travelling. Jen and me were talking about death the other day, and she read about this theory that the universe is parallel, and when we die in this life, we pass through a black hole, and then we become a 2D version of ourselves, but we carry on as we would have before. I don't know if its true, but I hope to anything that it is. I don't think I could deal with never seeing the people I've lost ever again. I'm not religious, but a part of me believes you can't lose what makes you a person. You're physicality might disappear, but where does the rest go? You had such an amazing spirit Emma, I can't believe that the world can carry on without it once it has witnessed it. I love you and miss you eternally. And its mad, I only knew you such a short time, compared to some people. My heart still goes out to those many close friends and incredible family you had, who will never move on with your leaving. But, help them carry on. Keep lighting those rainbows, haha. You are a true angel, who taught so many of us so much, just by existing. This must have been your legacy. I hope you are as proud of all of us, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx